Thursday, May 21, 2009

A New Chapter in Parenthood

Today I took my only child (she's 20) to the airport and put her on an international flight to Eastern Europe.  I was excited about her going, but today has been very unnerving.  I didn't think I would feel this way, but today has been surreal.  Trying to wrap my mind around her being on another continent.  Somewhere where I can't get to her if she needs me.  

I have been very unsettled today.  I said I would not track her flight online, but before the plane even left the ground I was tracking it.  Now I am going beserk because I lost them when they started across the Atlantic.  The flight tracker says that connection will be lost while crossing a large body of water, so I'm not worried, YET!  They have two more hours of the flight left, and Amsterdam isn't inland much, so I probably won't make contact with the flight until it lands.  

She will be gone for 5 weeks!  I miss her already.

I know she will have the experience of a lifetime on this trip, but the question is will I live through it?